Tuesday, 15 March 2011
Which is the real me?
On the surface im friendly and get along well with others. But i still feel that im the same cold and silent person i used to be....
Wednesday, 2 February 2011
Sunday, 5 December 2010
Medical Response Force
Got interviewed this week for the MRF selection thing.. not sure if i will get it but i hope i can survive it!!!
Saturday, 6 November 2010
Saturday, 30 October 2010
Medic
To sum up my week: Study. Test. Pushups. Poke. Get poked. Lose some blood. More tests. End of week.
Friday, 8 October 2010
sigh......
Waiting for the orders i placed for 2 eva figures to be confirmed. hmm gotta go back to army life soon. thinking about it can vomit blood(ink).
Saturday, 25 September 2010
Friday, 3 September 2010
Book out loooooohhhhh
Booked out today... and i am fucking TIRED... did alot of shit in the morning.. heh juz gonna slack the rest of the night.. sian gotta book in early on sun then go on a week long holiday to tekong.. make friends with the insects.. put on green and black make up.. go play pew pew with our rifles..
Thursday, 26 August 2010
Life as a commando recruit..
So much stuff i wana talk about. But so much i cant talk about too lol. Cant really talk abt my training cept that its tiring and it has made me very brown. Booked out early this week but i got to return to camp for the parents engagement thing. Sunday booking back in sian. But im going to ENJOY MY FREEDOM this weekend. Still going to do training and shit tho cant slack on that. they want
Monday, 9 August 2010
National Day
Booked out last night. We had a run at around 6am yesterday and for some fucking reason, i duno if its becos we're booking out or we improving everyone suddenly got so much energy. Anyway after packing up, we all moved out in our no.4s and waited for the bus to come. the moment the bus went out of camp everyone went bat shit crazy. anyways.. bought some stuff i needed to buy.. counterpain for my muscles.. plasters for my cuts.. i got so many freaking cuts all over my body lol. my skin color now different haha. some areas still like snow white but i think eventualy ill become chocolate color. got such a good slp after i got home. with air con all that shit. but one thing that followed me home. PEOPLE WAKING ME UP IN THE MORNING FROM SHOUTING. This morning ppl were getting married so they were right outside my window above the carpark (i stay in a condo estate) singing love songs and shouting and laughing. I get the same shit in the army. except that its 3 fucking AM, and its commando regulars doing their ranger course screaming warcries and singing army songs. but both equally loud and both woke me up. this morn i was like 'gnnnAAAAGGGHHHHHH' when the singing started. cant even let me rest for a few hours. anyway i intend to do some running in the evening. cant slack even when out of camp. i decided to stop drinking and really work for that red beret.
Thursday, 29 July 2010
Last Last Post
Okay so just now wasnt my last post. Right now im checking to make sure i have everything. Im thinking of bringing a smaller bag but not sure if i can fit everything in. Looking forward to meeting new ppl in camp since everyone else i know so far more or less never contact me anymore. Im not exactly 100% fit but i think they die die will make me fit. i heard commando bmt is basically the same but they push you further. my stamina really dropped alot these few months haha i gotta do alot of running in camp to build it back up. thinking of bringing a book to read in camp. maybe lord of the rings. few thousand pages should be able to last me =D ok enough slacking back to packing. this is Dominic saying bye bye to myself and hello to my future self in 9 weeks.
Last Post
Packing my stuff now. I leave at about 7 in the morning tommorow. From the time school ended till now noone wanted to talk to me. Well.. too late to give a shit anymore. Last post. Bye.
Starcraft 2 Campaign Finished.
Just finished Starcraft 2. And with just a day to go with my enlistment! Lol. Unexpected ending. cant wait for the next chapter.
Monday, 26 July 2010
Recent thoughts about my life...
I was at the clinic the other day and when i went in my doctor said ' eh? u cut your hair? no more visual kei hair?' i was like 'wha..?' lol and of all the people to discuss visual kei with it was my doctor LOL! he was quite surprised i was entering commandos. to be honest even i had the 'wtf' face when i got the letter. i had my PES downed from A to B L1 cos i had a minor op done on my left eye 2 years ago. I hav a 6/6 in each eye though. I remember when i went for the op.. fuck i was awake the whole time when they brought the knife to my eye.. anyways i think most of u dont wanna hear the rest. when i got out my vision was still quite blur and i couldnt see shit out of that eye for the nxt few weeks. They didnt give me a pirate eye patch tho. i think girls go crazy over guys with pirate eye patches. LOL. anyway back to topic. my dad was realy pissed off i got assigned to the commandos instead because my initial enlistment letter stated i was to be sent to BMTC 3 in Tekong. But i got the 2nd letter abt a week later saying i was to report to SOTAC in Pasir Ris it came with the green paper stating Commando Training Institute and my dad just blew his top heh. well i can see why he's concerned.. hes colleague at work has a son in commandos who dislocated his shoulder after a parachute jump. instant downgrade to Armor Division. obviously i wanna be careful and not let the same shit happen to me. recently tho i guess he just came to accept it. He's been telling me it might be gd since not many ppl get selected anyway. And that since im such a sissy now it might be gd training for me. lolz. ive been spending alot of time with my family these few days. been going jogging with my dad in the evenings. ive been laying off beer for the past few weeks. im sipping moscato wine as im typing now tho haha. anyway im fking hungry after my run earlier im gonna hav my dinner now maybe ill post more stuff later.
Sleepy
Went running this evening damn sleepy now.. running tmr again. gotta make sure i got everything i need b4 i go in also.. zzzz
Saturday, 24 July 2010
Getting tired but...
.... life goes on. ive spent the past few months alone and it gave me alot of time to think. not having any company or friends to talk and go out with for the past few months, it gets kind of depressing after awhile but eventually i got numb to it and dun realy give a shit. i go out alone. i watch movies alone. i eat alone. i havent spoken to anyone since sch ended. thinking back about my life these past 22 years, only Kenneth has treated me like a real friend and realy stood my even when i start having mood swings (but even he has uni coming and we dont talk much) . im an introvert. i avoid crowds and prefer not to stand out. but others just take it that im anti social and avoid me. being anti social and being introvert are two very different things. introverts still keep friends. but everyone is the same. they always claim to be my friend and then treat me like i dont exist later. I admit i built up alot of anger over the years i dont trust alot of people now. I usualy act friendly but when it comes to mixing around i avoid people. I dont want to go through the pain of having ppl not inviting me to events and ignoring me. For example no one wanted to attend my 21st bday. when i asked some others to help me pass to message around they conviniently forget. totaly ruined the rest of that year for me cos i have never had a bday party before and i wanted that to be my first. People alway say im emo. i get very angry when they say that cos the only reason i dont talk is cause i dont say anything unecessary. in fact, they never spent most of their lives alone who the fuck gave them the right to judge me. Every now and then i still look at my phone from time to time but i havent received any calls or messages for months cept from a few people. maybe i shld cancel my line. My depression has gotten quite bad.. i cant sleep at night, im thinking about suicide from time to time but in the end, i back out cos i guess i still wanna live and experience things in the future :) i know im talking to myself but blogging so far helps me vent my frustration abit and is probably the only thing keeping me from going insane. anyway... i got a dental appointment in abt 5 hours im gonna go to sleep now. nite.
My phone went to heaven (or hell)
Thursday, 22 July 2010
come on 3.0 K/D
racked up kills-deaths of 12-0, 3-0, 35-5, 22-0 today im just 0.03 short of hitting my first 3.0 KD ratio!
Starcraft 2
My last guitar class is merging with the 5pm class cos there arent enough people in mine (3 left including me). Hopefuly Spencer will still be teaching if i find time to go back.
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